Remember February being a eventful month, at least in your youth ? If not at I do at the very least it seemed to be eventual or it just appeared that way for me. It was one of my favorites it was the month of romance ,love, childhood crushes and oddly enough Slavery. I haven't one special this month that celebrated african-americans or Martin luther King Jr. , or Malcolm X. Hence, after Dave Grohl death, the realization how much he and "his" friends had an impact on me , not to mention New Years in which my mind still wonders .[(How many bullets did they use how many where used, how many shots where aimed at me, how many people where shocked when they walked away alive. Furthermore, why did they attack me after , They had been freed and saw their friend resurrect? Why do I still feel like I have become what I have been set out to destroy and what reviles me the most)].Well the list of my disappointments from humanity is long. But this??? I want to hear those stories of survival , strength and eventual justice . The strength of the human soul that undoubtedly exists and the sheer determination that can literally transform one self.
Hearing about Alice Walker, Maya Angelou and their struggles against a anit-civil libertarian tryanical government or a racist industry where white men ruled the printed page. Langston Hughes story of self discovery and the eternal ideal to be free. Utterly free from one's mental , spiritual, and emotionally bondage. Wither it exists as something obtainable is purely irrelevant to the aura or conciousness it denotes . The modest fact that these peoples live's can more or elevate , and redeem the human ( not just as black , white, male, hispanic,female white , republican, democrat, fat, or skinny.)race/species, matters. Just like it matters that we believe and up hold higher ideals than our predecestors , because it means we have (through God's grace and man's resilience ) marched on . That humanity is closer to God than the devil, more than people realize.
I guess I am pissed that I had to be here to tell you this, and I had to kick the shit out of at least seven grown men, to get some damn respect , just as being an opinionated women in America. Eventhough it might seem slightly self-indulgent as I type it I can see that it is not, partly the reason why I have lasted so long is partially due to the way I have seen Frances(social therapist), or Nina Sirleaf and that is like great women . One day future generations will look upon me and my quest for love dignity and freedom , and weep with tears of relief .
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