Well writers block has got to be the biggest bitch I 've encountered. I wonder well first if anyone reads this, Secondly how they may have gotten over their writers block . Life is solitary to say the least. Mother is working more and more it seems, Her boss is in a sensitive state so the work load gets carried onward . I have a great amount of anger inside of me soo much so I feel numb. However knowing that with in my hate just lays an unknown , an other fear, that's it. The thought of my hate and the core being anger, does not seem to dissipate it , or void the reason I have it . I suspect and believe me I can only suspect (since I have heard from no one as of late.) that people directly involved in this situation , believe I wonder about wondering when the first people will call or message back. I am not and the apprehension to do so , I can only chalk up to something like a temper-tantrum. Hold out as long as you can til I break mentally or emotionally .
These petty little mind games are disturbing to say the Least!!!!!! The complex lay6ers of memories and emotions that had me arrive at this point I feel are to horrible to unburden to anyone, even my mother. So I try to hold it in as much as I can . I simply cant imagine how the world became this way, obviously I had expected resistance to the general Armageddon scenario.
However an end to sexism,racism, prejudices in a great vaaaaaaast majority I didnt figure to be so threatening. Well I felt a need just to mention not even jesus christ, Mary magdelene, st. Michael, or Uzarael knew what was going to happen until I walked into that gay bar on New Years in El Paso. whats so hard about change I remember reading who moved my cheese in my freshmen year of college, no shit? is a general synposis from the mind of God. Dont freak out if you feel inferior or insulted, I do know more than you and I tried nmy best to warn you , keeping your free-will in mind , thats how I am still innocent and feel no shame in what I had to do to get anyone to listen , now imagine if I didn't try.
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