Dear America,

Everytime I feel a sense of harm or danger I feel that writing would be the best thing to do. I see annabel as a harsh reality and a blow to my abilities . Sure there was nothing I could do but it doesnt feel like it as soon as I came to a belief that I could find what to fight for in annabel and she's gone. I try to take afternoon naps but I usually wake up with a jolt of fear running through my body , its this girl that just wont leave , I wish she would but there is no way of guarantee that she'll stay gone . I thought I heard her yelling crazy stuff to my mother last night .
" like I got the key ," or " you cant control the entire universe ."I really dislike this girl and the fact that my brother chooses to have her around is a hurtful gesture. Its as if being around her makes him feel better about himself and the current situation he has acquired. None of which was my fault , but I find myself being punished for something, I didnt do . I believe the objective is to rob my life with what little peace I have . Please pray for to St.Jude , he usually does it, and I have a lot of faith in him as a saint. The patron saint of lost causes. I feel for Mikeal and encourage every one to pray for them to ,that this little girl will find justice. It feels as if Dr. Swaney has just put another cord around my body to watch me squirm . This is another form of bondage. I called the crisis line and they were more understanding than the last time I think the lady just wanted to see me blow . I believe people think if I go insane then none of this happened or people will gain a sense of stability through my pain. I dont see how but I feel that is what is going on .
whatever my brother 's girlfriend has wanted to do isnt working or else she would let up , but she dosent she almost ravenous and deprived . And she'll do anything to get back to where she thought she was supposed to be , after all of this . Rich, successful on easy street ? I dont know but its time for her and everyone else to let go and just accept what they have done and let me get back to living my life .