Dear America,

Right I have a deep sadness for Annabel. She was a precious child and the time I got to spend with her was amazing. She reminded me of myself when I was a little girl. She large beautiful eyes that glowed like orbs. I hate myself a bit for letting it go unchecked . However, I am reminded that I had all these physical problems to deal with . I dont know where my others are , but I adore , miss and am a little angry/disappointed at them. Especially Mikael , that was her father and deep with in my gut I know john stewart or his cronies are to blame . Someone has been around me lately that I felt was supposed to serve as a distraction. I am so angry that no one has come forth to pay for Dave's or these little girls "dissappearance" . I have had several jobs at daycares . I used to think thats why John hated me , I could be around children without hurting them the way he did to me .
Being a Narcissist , envy being the main motive in any major action , he probably hated the fact that the children where so attendant with out me having to scar them emotionally or sexual especially baby Annabel. If anybody was there or saw the fiasco that happened on New Years Eve , she was part of the presents I gave my father . Yeshua , yes hes back; probably to get back Mary , she's always hanging around jon stewart for some reason ? The present was how they looked at him , and danced I taught them the song Freaks by Live after all I did write it I mean literally .( daddy had a lot of friends Kurt, not Yeshua.) It hurts slightly that this messiah has no part in martyrdom , to sacrifice my body and blood was not necessary but in a way . It stopped the touching for the most part . Why couldn't I get through to any of you I don't know , after all this carnage , hasnt it been enough?
But remember children karma has been amplified and it must be pretty close to being instantaneous. On the lighter side I am addicted to this thing on Myspace called Super Pets , I cant stop fucken playing , if anybody out there has one please stop by and give me a hug . I am lonely, but I understand I only long for the presence of the others . There's a little brat named bugs on this game its barack obama , he loves turtles ...GIVE HIM 10. I like roses and orchids.

-----------------THE GODDESS