Dear America,

I sit here just finish watching the Colbert Report and I am reminded of David . I miss him so much specially the way it could of been it is painful to think of however, irresistable. And of course baby annabel. I went to the seminary were St. Anthony and St. Mikael live and work. To see if they where there and to leave an arranement of ponsitas I made . I feel so drained yet so nervous last nite I thought I was going have to committ myself . I felt like such shit , all I want is for these to end. With someone going to jail, for the committed crimes. My brothers girlfriend, jackie, was in austin staying at the same hostile and I remember her in my sleep, standing over me . Now she is here all the time with my brother I want her to leave.
But the fear that mother never truly believes me is a risk . I took it and told why I felt so bad , why people are still trying to work with Satan and against me . I believe it is because I have brought people closer to God. So the response is to shoot me down . I called the crisis line and the women kept feeding into my head that I was delusional, basically take it bitch , hahahaha put to the ground . I despise this and it sickens me . Even in the hospital the young n.r.a.s would bombarb my mother that they where doing there job and they had people follow me saying I keep leaving just to eat ? With no money in my pocket , and barely being able to see.
I think because they all thought they would get celebrity love or marriage or something . Which before midnight and I walked through the bar where all of Hollywood was , just took place. I am not sure who married who but it was also supposed to be a slap in the face. I didnt really care , I just wanted annabel to be safe and for this to end. Since if no one did I knew it wouldnt be pretty. Plus they have given this pill called lupin which counteracts with my heart medication so I cant take it. I have pill for my new disease that seems to work and convincing my mother of that was horrific . She scares me the least , I just want to be with one of my others to hug me and let me know everything is okay . So I went to the seminary and as usual they wouldnt let Mikeal see me but I saw him and he charged out of the mass . He was crying I guess he must of been ashamed seeing as how we could protect his daughter form the clutches of Jon Stewart.
I think this is scary for some because it is true , I am right and to most people that leads them to believe they themselves can only be one thing and that is wrong . But its not entirely so or true to believe that you can see all of one issue with been directly involved is a common human mistake.