Dear Diary.

Today I tried to take a nap today and it was rough first to relax myself enough to allow slumber to come over me . My dreams are uneasy and I find myself waking up in the middle of it glad that my reality is slightly calmer than my sleep. I am not sure where this feeling of such pressure is coming from but I began to think if anybody else is feeling uneasy about this . About the lack of communication from one person to another , that could be the actual decisive move to keep other people in the dark about whats going on in order to create hysteria and fear. I watched hoarders the other day and it dawned on me that I could be an emotional hoarder . Thus the reason to moving to a more intimate form of writing. Yes , I get scared and tense and wonder what I did wrong and what I did right . I just wish I knew who was okay and who wasn't. That is stressful enough to wonder where my others are if they are my others however , I have seen them doing my work or their work , but now I don't know why he couldn't see me. I know there is protocol to follow in a seminary but women do work with them plus it would give me great solace to speak to him. But they insist on not. I am glad there has been advancement in ending the iraq war but I call for the end of by barack obama. I and the rest of the world need to feel and live in peace under the anti-christ rule , that is a prophecy he has to keep.