The Fear.

About three years ago I entered a state of shock I call the fear. It was horrible . Every second of my day was filled with anxiety and unassured. This was before the bernie -mad(off) scam. Now I went through this grueling process of chain-smoking and nail biting. I was in LL's old house and the wicked shit that occurred here came running back to me . I asked my old doctor for some help or mercy , but he didnt give it and vehemently denied him ever touching me . I hated him. For six months this went on and finally I got help when I entered peak . Now I believe lot of people have experienced this feeling before . Specially now with no feed-back on no one's part but my own . I have yet to see Sally the reincarnated version of Mary Magdalene. I am scared shit-less to go back there . I dont not feel well but not like that . I just realized as I was watching t.v. that in Annabels death something occured to me what scared me the most was that it was done . What else can I do, and still another innocent was murdered I see someone resembling her mother online and I hate her every time I see her profile. How could she still be online? If it were her. I dunno , but I also realized the fact that I cant get physical justice for this little girl . Or even stop it from happening again.!!!
However it was a bit of relief as to why I took this so personnel , was that it represented me . What happened to my innocence and what happened to my body , it sick deprived and wrong . However the last part in the madhatters klub actually happened . When I went last to the seminary a flash did come upon St. Mikaels side. ST . MIchael being the first archangels you see after death , I know he had to meet is little girl on the other side . It gives me some comfort to know I have brought peace to my angels. I just wish I had some solace and reprive , I feel delicate and cant wait to see myself through this thank you to everyone who has been praying to St. Jude and the rest. Lone wolf on super pets is JOhn stewart he likes gifts give them to him specially the free ones!!!!