Dear Diary,
The slaughter that was my youth is buried deep with in me . TO drag it back out is a painful but necessary process .I wonder why this went on for so long , how could it go on for so long ? I know where my mother and father where , but it doesn't happen at to be of any consolation. Its seems at those moments it was an allowance of what happened to me that it was okay for these men to treat me like their rag-doll. I remember one day when I was 3 . John Stewart, Dave Grohl( my he r.i.p) and Anthony Kiedis left me with a 28 year old Russell Maynard Brand . They left him a 30 case of beer and me . He beat and slapped me every time I tried to talk to him or ask him for anything . A couple of hours later when he was drunk he socked me in the stomach tore off my clothes forced me to perform fellatio on him. He continued to rape and beat me for three more hours . Finally , I hide in my Aunts closet so far back were his drunken grasp , I feel asleep. When I woke up I was so dehydrated and confused if it weren't for John Stewart's grandpa whom he refers to as "dad" who is a pedi-oncologist, I might have died. 3 years later I was diagnosed with a rare form of child hood cancer and after a year found myself with in his "dad's" care . I continued to be raped by John Stewart for 3 more years after my diagnosis not to mention his "daddy" who molested John when he was younger. My Dad was always on tour around this time that I mentioned he became addicted to heroin. He was later killed by this men , the public knows of as Kurt Cobain .
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