Question?

So it is Malcolm X's birthday, and there are a few things I said I was going to explain like the book of revelations, or how I did slain this supposedly "mythical" demon-dragon known as Leviathan. Or how I became to be in the company of at least half of Celebrity America and certain British celebrities ( as a child ) and how Kurt Cobain being my natural born father cursed me with this faith of constant sexual, emotional , and physical abuse . There is also the realization that a groups of young girls around my age and younger have tried at least on three different occasions tried to murder me . Not just talk but actual plots to fill my drinks with insulin to push me into a diabetic coma or stroke . Or how Dane cook tried killing me once by paying a bartender down here to put roach insecticide in a shot he gave me. But first let me soothe some minds that the end of the physical world should happen in about 3 billion years.
However the end of this world as we know it: The world of greed, corruption, wrath, hate , war and oppression has to end. It can no longer exist, because of greed it threatens to destroy every thing related and involved in it. This cannot exist because God will not allow it to exist. Some people say these negative things will never change but it is part of human nature. Is it really? If we are born of love and light, if we are evolved then why don't we act like it . So it seems that this struggle between good and bad exists even with out the presence of God. If wars and the terror we reign on the earth is staple of what separates us , from our animal ancestors then have we really evolved? Or is there an opposing force whose desire is to turn the human race away from glory . Which in Hitler we have seen the worst of humanity , we naturally see him as an archetype for evil.Then, there must be a essence of pure love that has moved people such as Jesus Christ, Malcolm X, Martin Luther King , Ghandi, Mother Teresa towards the advancement of the human race . Thus leads to a further , more disturbing question do we chose not to believe in God because we cant fathom it , Or because we don't want to????