number 45:......"it was him."

        I  dont remember how I got there, all I can remember from the genesis of  this tale is being kidnapped and being told open your eyes "Sophia!!!" . I looked up and all around me were richly colored pink walls . I and four  other children, none under the age of seven , where being kept inside these plush hotel suite."Daddy" Chris(Tom Hanks) had brought me. Nick Cave was sitting at a large table sniffing cocaine and Autumn (age 7, whom later became obsessed with my plotting my murder .) Was screaming (like she always was) and playing with some barbies naked. I hated seeing Autumn naked ,as a child, was fucked, fingered and raped so much her pre-pubescent  vagina was  warn out and hung slightly between her  legs , it was disgusting  and disturbed me greatly.
      " Sophia ," Chris was screaming in my ear " you stay here and do what you're told till I get back !!"  I hated it when Chris screamed , If  I had to do something , I usually did  excruciatingly reluctant though. Axel was there and had earlier (now it is coming back)had "some people" take me shopping before this incident. He wouldnt let me play with the toys I had bought , I had to leave them in their boxes, Axel usually did this with toys with me. He always wondered why this little "trick" didn't go over well with me. In becoming utterly devoted to him; it was a bust and a failure. I didnt give a shit! Toys , I had plenty ,  and what he gave me wasnt enough  for me to accept  or even want the "kind" of devotion he always wanted. He went over to Autumn and put his mouth on her body . She screamed then acted out her hatred on the doll screaming "like it , Like It!!" . He tossed the bag to Nick Cave and said is " this is for baby A."
                  Nick was wearing a cowboys hat and whispered in Axels'(Jeremy's)  ear : " hey man can you get me baby." I was always called baby, that was my porno codename.  They left me with few of my belongings and told me when Tom Hanks came back and only when He came back ,could I leave.  Russell Brand , then 28, in 1988,  was  present he had always disgusted me; he was ugly ,bald and ANNOYING!! More so than Axel but not as much as Millhouse. Well ,when they left they didn't give me any instructions. So I kept to my self , I was raped again and again , by several men.   And yes for any Nimrod out there it included Nick and Russell. I also remember the third man that was staying with us ....................................................